I am terribly sad that due to a very large and daunting History of Modern Germany midterm today; I was unable to take all the Halloween photos that I wanted to. Work and school make it very difficult to find time to do the beautiful and fun things in life. Oh and I forgot to mention sleeping. I enjoy getting my full 8 hours and will give that up for only a very few things in life.
Hopefully tonight I can still get a few shots. Well, back to studying for me! Enjoy your Halloween everyone and take lots of fantastic photos so that I can see and comment and pretend like I had the time to do the same this Halloween.
I am sitting in an airport waiting for Dallas to arrive and as I sit here, I am thinking about the poetic beauty of an airport. To some it is the means to an escape and to others it is the most beautiful place in the world as it reunites them with loved ones. I would love to have my camera here and be able to capture these moments. The anticipation of seeing someone again, the longing, the tears of joy when the person you’ve been waiting for finally arrives. So many emotions floating around 1 room.
Today I have discovered the joy of dressing like I’m 17 again. In a time in my life where I feel completely overwhelmed and old, it is nice to dress like a kid again. Truthfully, my favorite way to dress when I’m all stressed out is like I have come straight out of 1986. Big hair, Bandana, Ripped band tees and some bright leggings, together make me a very happy camper. I feel like I can be a little ridiculous in the midst of classes and homework and shoots and editing and family and stress and basically everything I have to do.
Life is kind of funny, that when it’s slow and boring we crave how busy and crazy it can be. But when it is fast paced and crazy we crave the slow pace of those boring days.
Lately I have been in a spout of crazy busy days. I am trying to juggle school, homework, shoots, editing, family, friends, work and well life. I am struggling to catch up because I always feel like I am behind. Life would be so much easier if we never needed to sleep. Oh how I would love that life. If we could work and be occupied 24 hours a day. So much more would get done, it would be incredible. Sadly, it is not the case and without my at least 7 hours of sleep I can not function in the least. I am not a usual university student who can pull all nighters to study. It is completely useless. So therefore, I am the kind of person who gets behind and has to work like mad to catch herself up.
Some days, I just wish I could put life on hold. Too bad that that can never happen. Though really, I am not whining. I am so pleased with my life and all I am getting to accomplish. Working on my photography is my vice and my greatest pleasure. I am over critical and if I have a bad shoot it ruins my mood and my love. I have recently had a bad shoot due to the rain. It was a prom shoot and they wanted to do it in a barn and my flash was failing me. I feel so trashed because of it.
But I need to keep my head up. And maybe take a nap…eventually!